So it's been 2 months since I'm gone from here. Maybe being busy and occupied is a good thing for me, so I won't try to think of silly things and come here to whine. But apparently I'm still so troubled and traumatised by the kind of life I'm leading - National Service.

Clerk. It may sound easy and dumb, but truth has it that life wasn't easier than an infantry brigade. I hate to mention about NS, in fact I seldom do that to anybody. But I have to face the fact that I have to complete this 2-year dumb course. 4.5 months past, 19.5 months left. But the morale in me has dropped rock bottom, leaving me with nothing but dreads for the rest of the course.

$420 is the amount I'm receiving every month, how encouraging. Imagine doing stupid jobs with that kind of pay, and being intimidated by a bunch of douchebags. I wonder, if Singapore happen to go to war, how many men are truly willing to go all out and sacrifice for the country? Not me, I haven't found a deserving reason to do that. People are just forced into service, doing things that pretty waste 2 years of their lives. If people are so patriotic about their country, they'll sign on to become regulars. What is the point of forcing citizens to take up this responsibility when they don't even want to be responsible for it?


Tomorrow is just another crappy day. Good night, if it's really so good.