8 days since I last blogged. Not much things to mention actually besides my emotional break down. I wished I could talk to somebody about myself, but my personality didn't allow me to open up. I couldn't show people my frail side, and I couldn't bow down to fate. I'm a sly and cunning person, always plotting for my own benefits. I'm a selfish and stubborn lad, never once compromised and gave way to people.

I can't deny the fact that I'm a chauvinist. I have too much confidence, and can't afford to lose. I make people my subordinates, I manipulate people's minds. I don't enjoy doing that, but I have to do that to protect myself (Since being nice doesn't beget kindness). I'm a very linguistic person, that alone has made me reign over people who can't comprehend the truth in my words. Some knew my evil traits, many find me secularly harmless. I don't gratify people's kindness towards me, I take advantages. I need a break out, to find the meanings in life. When people think that I'm just being humorous about my plans, I regard everything in a business perspective. Business is a ritual of money, a religion for all who lives on earth.

I want to apologise to people like Steph who placed a lot of trust on me. I'm not saying sorry because I cheated you, but for the kind of attitude I gave to all of you. I am a very self-centered person who had learnt to put myself before anybody besides my family. Maybe because I've been hurt since small, and I can't stomach anymore humiliations. I never talked about my childhood, because it hurts me.

宁可我负天下人，不可天下人负我。
助人一宴，害己千回。
人不为己，天诛地灭。