It made me so affected. Why did I have to bump into you? My mood was already in its worst, trying very very hard to brace up. So I called up my friends in hope to pull me away from all the thoughts. But of all things, we have to meet... Shall I call it fate, os shall I say god is trying to hurt me more?

I couldn't believe my eyes when you appeared before me. You said hi, I was dumbfounded. How I wished I could just go forward and give you a big 'I really miss you' hug. But I know I have to leave before my emotions get in the way. Sorry I wasn't very friendly. You know, I can't help but think... That you might be meeting that guy later on, and he might fetch you home. That alone killed me. It hurts so deeply I can't breathe.

I tried to manage my emotions in Partyworld. I thought it wasn't fair to pull everyone down with a long face, so I did my best to engage in the jokes and conversations. But songs are songs, and people who know me know that the kind of songs I listen to are suicidal.

月亮代表我的心 - 张国荣 I started tearing. That song is what I always wanted to sing for you. Nobody noticed my tears, so still alright. Right before I was about to sing 共同度过, I remembered you told me you liked that song. So before I started singing, I thought in my mind 'Yvonne, 我现在就要唱这首歌了。你快过来好吗?' That's when I burst into tears, and I didn't manage to finish that song. I sang it halfway and passed the mic for the next track.

This time everyone knew it - My voice was evident enough. But all acted oblivious till I felt better and started to talk again. But the tears didn't make me feel better. Maybe I was too possessive, and I loved you too deeply... I'm worst than breaking down when I think of that crush thing. I go crazy in fact...

I miss you, I really really do. And I wished I could have a good look at you like I always do before. My hands on your cheeks, eye-to-eye look. You are the most beautiful girl I ever seen. But now, I had to go away when I see you. I don't want you to see me cry.....

I love you.