Just as the music in my blog background goes, I miss you. I really do...

Today is the first day of school, and I've missed lectures already. School reminds me of you, how I always want to dress well to meet you after lessons, always rushing to the bus stop to meet you. Now I've got nowhere to go after school, and I'm afraid I'll cry in lectures. I'm crying now again... I'm not known to be so frail and weak...

Losing you, I lost my morale and motivation. I dropped my ambitious loads, and lost my drive to do anything. If I ever get that chance, if ever...

Shall I believe in retributions? I broke relationships, now I lost all in one go. My friends, you.. I admit here now, that I'm afraid. I am scared. The grand 'duke' meets the same destiny again. It's bad I got that name. lol should I even believe in such? It's a mistake, to anyhow agrees to a birthday chalet. Even my own relative ain't interested in coming.

I almost took the plunge, because too many things happened altogether. 2008, it's the worst year of my life. Too much to ponder.