The most beautiful thing that happened to me, is you stepping into my life. The ugliest thing that happened to me, is you leaving my life.

After that 1-hour call, I smiled... I felt abnormal, as if something evil in me has been lifted. Then I realised, for a moment in my life I feel un-evil... I can't feel the grudges and hatred that's been running in my holy blood for years. It just is not me to feel so ordinary, but it happened right after we hung up... I couldn't sense the darkness, I couldn't make the chills... You lit me. Yet I lost you.

I weeped a total of 6 times after the call till now. I remorse for not treating you well, I cry to my foolishness of not cherishing you... Things changed, I've changed... You lost yourself while you were with me, I lost myself after losing you..

My room... FCUK perfume, Amazing Grace Music Box, Candles, Framed-puzzle, Bedsheet, Windchimes, Photo frame, Donald Duck, Patrick, Mini-plushies, Royce packaging, Photos, Birthday-sketchbook, High-Society Music, Bags, a lot more... They remind me of you. I bought more glowing stars to make my room more fantasizing, but even before I started working on them, I cried and broke down again... You used to enjoy the starry room with me... So what if I add more stars now? You won't see it with me..

I lost a greatest confidante. I lost love.