Elvis Presley, Moscato. I'm trying to get myself drunk in his chamber music.

I chanted for 30 minutes earlier this midnight. I can feel myself losing touch to everything; my soul, my directions, my motivation, my goals, my life. I've looked rather lethargic lately, there has been so much to worry everyday. Maybe I'm getting influenced, maybe I held a very high expectation of myself. I'm stressed about some phobia, I'm feeling inferior to things that I see but couldn't achieve, I'm tied to a silly attachment that wouldn't bring me to anywhere. And reminders of these sure kill every of my single day. That is why I needed to chant, to balance my life, to get myself calm.

I don't wish to mention anything about my ego here, neither do I want to talk about it. I just thought I needed some support if I could, to move on. I never used to feel this way, but it looks like I've failed as Agares. I've screwed up this life, or at least the 20 years that I spent.

Where am I?