There have been so much to handle, so much to resolve. When will I ever settle down? Most probably after the 2 years. It's what worries me most, and what's stopping me from working towards my goal. Everything seem so silly, I don't wish to waste 2 years of my life in the compulsory service doing stupid stuffs. Grace be with me, stop all that is bothering me.

This attachment is easy, but without salary it seems harder than difficulties. I have to get a job to provide myself, which means I would have no off day at all. How about my personal training, my time with loved ones? Stress has come over me, I don't know how to resolve all of these. I'm the leader of the group, I've some responsibilities to undertake, but without much drive I can't achieve anything. If I fall, my team falls.

Money, personal training, and most importantly time, is what I'm so troubled about. How am I to concentrate in the project without a pure proper mind?