Two different days I said I was tired.... Twice you said you are more tired than I am... And said you did so much more things in school than me... It's true. Yes I may not have so much to do, I may not have projects so tough like you do, I can't achieve anything, I may not have a shop to manage at all, I am not as capable as you... I'm useless and a wastrel, You've beaten down my ego, but I am still tired. From all those nonsense I have in school, from being so lonely in class, eating alone, spending rest time in the library alone, and doing a group project all alone. Shopping?

So what if I live a pampered life... What's the point of getting everything you want when you have nobody to share your joy with? What is a million dollar when nobody even give a damn to you? Why envy people who are pampered... No pampered kids live a happy life........

All i wish for, is to have a friend in school who's willing to guide me and laugh together with me. Is that too much to ask for? I'm going down to my projects again.. I'll plan and do everything myself... 3 major projects all under my surveillance...

I've lost interests in english pop music and J-rock or anything else... and have fallen into the darkside of the music again... Call me silly, you may not even want to try to listen to the kind of music I listen to. But bells, chimes, chorals and organs make me holy and thus happy. It's still the only harmony I get for a life.....

Labels: Darkside attitude mix