We need to calm down...

I know somehow, a human being would spill lotsa harmful words that doesn't come from the heart when he's upset.. Sub-conscious state.. So i'm not gonna write whatever things that may have hurt both of us here.. Somehow, it must be a misunderstanding..

I only wish you can be frank with me about what i did that have hurt you... I learnt something. Last week, I kind of expected us to quarrel badly about my jealousy when something i don't really remember happened. It was about a guy I don't like who contacted you or something like that.. I was very jealous, so much that I almost fell it out with you but I controlled. You saw my expressions and asked me why was I looking so uptight.. I didn't want to tell you initially because it's kind of awkward to say it out. A minute later I decided to tell you because I don't want this to drag our moods for the whole day down. So I told you i was fucking jealous and upset... You pampered me somehow, and assured me which was why I could let go of the pain in me.

I hope you don't get the meaning that I'm being noble or that you're not good for me or anything negative. I say all these because I hope that you would try to open up frankly to me whatever unhappy things I did that upset you so that I would mend for what I've foolishly done.

I may become worked up when I get anxious. I don't mean that you are over-sensitive, but I was too insensitive myself. I know that by saying sorry wouldn't really cheer you because sincerity is so invisible to preach, but if you could believe me, I really felt bad for what I said to you at the stairs just now. I long for a goodbye kiss that would lit my darkness, and a hug that would put me to good sleep tonight..

I miss you...