I'm feeling very very dizzy, I can't walk

What is left for me to write, what is there for me to ask? When everything has so much become mere disappointment..... When I needed the most of you at my weakest time, when I nearly fell unconscious on my way back, was there still a moment of fairness to spare, or is love a willingness to care without asking for return?

My house is far from the bus stop, so is the journey back home from here I admit. I begged you to come, and you came so that I won't throw anymore tantrums. I dragged my feet to send you home after I felt better after the short rest, and fell to the ground sub-conscious on my way back. If the phone hasn't rung which somehow woke me up, nobody would know that I fainted halfway through the journey.

"started to get affected because all these kindness jus go one way. there is no return path. and i started to doubt the fairness in things."

Hurt is the word when I read this. Do you feel unfair at all when you care for me? When I send you back home everytime even when I'm so sick just to ensure you get home safely, I walked out from home to the faraway bus stop and took a bus to your place when you're sick and couldn't move much, when I forced myself to shop together with you so that you won't waste any of your time until I collapsed and asked for a rest when you don't feel like coming over yesterday, I always try my best to meet you whenever you needed me even when I've some programmes already... I don't ask for any return, only for your appreciation.

My words at the bus stop did hurt you I know, and I'm sorry for saying those that I didn't mean it.

All this kindness just go one way..... You don't feel any of my care at all, or do you think that I'm doing all of this solely for myself over some unknown reasons?

Porridge is what I have for lunch... which some plain vegetable that wouldn't even appetise me at all. I'm sick. But I'll have to take care of myself before I faint again.