I guess I'm beginning to feel the pressure pumping up my small and weak, bloated and exploding heart... With the recall and reminder of all the projects and assignments I've to complete before this term break ends, I've but to plunge into the deep bottomless hole of all the shit and troubles that I'll never be able to clean them up...

The only relief is the company of dar and maybe some boring activities that may captivate myself from all those nonsensical facts that I actually have to meet up with and then resolve with solutions that is beyond my ability... What will I do now? There is no drive in me to move on, neither any motivation to push me ahead... So I'm stucked, who will do me a deflation please?

Anyway for dar.. You aren't useless alright! You could do a lot of things that I couldn't, and still cannot. Competing with your siblings over things like studies etc is really worthless.. Afterall, attitude is the most important word in social life. You got no that, you get no society. She couldn't secure her boyfriend like you did firmly, and she still doesn't understand what reason is without being unreasonable first.

One more thing! Stop the thoughts of obesity and ugliness of yourself... Those has never related to your life my dear... Even the fucken durian bastard calls out to you when I was only in front of him!! Grr I'll stuff the fruit into his throat and make sure he calls out to no one again if he harbors anything bad about you.

That black shirt turns me on baby! S would make me salivate every minute I'm with you.. hehe =D