Suffering from a very serious headache... One that I've never had before in the past...

I love you, and not love who I want you to be. In the past, I argue to vent my points and unhappiness until you couldn't take in anymore and asked for a break. Now, I don't argue no more and remained as calm as I can be even though I very much wanted to sream. But you don't seem to be happy either.

I screamed at you more than once, and you told me you don't like to be screamed upon. Today, it wasn't your screams that upset me. It was your tone. I remained very calm and continued to comment on your flip-flops. But what I expected was only a kiss or even just a sorry. Nobody loves to be screamed upon.

You never liked me to talk to other girls especially to those you hate, and I didn't. I hate him, I'm jealous too. But I swallowed the fact that you initiated the chat... You talked to me about so many guys, i was jealous. But I let you the freedom of chatting in MSN, unlike the past when I was so ego about it. There are so much thing I've done.. so much I've tried and learnt to accept. But.. you said... you don't need me. you love who you want me to be..