Update? My blog was all about my anger and depression... I realised something. Everything i blog, would become a reason why we would argue...

I went all the way to SP from east to west just to meet you, and all turned out this way.. What is your criteria for me to please you ? Do you really think i dun wish to go in? The doors opened, you moved without even saying anything to me. You know how that felt? You think i like to torture myself by thinking that the bastard is luring you in? Its nt my school. I dun go in like i did e last time in ya gems. You've got a strict lecturer in there, what if im caught and a letter is sent to my sch and im expelled? You used to say I only think for myself.. Now what is happening? I dun wanna be dere? Standing all e way in e train just to c u, you told me smth so hurtin...

"I'm used to it anyway" What are you used to ? I'm used to keeping everything to myself... You are troubled, i'm dere to cheer u. You're stressed, im dere to support you. You're lonely, i'm dere to accompany you even when its e day my junior is competin. I ask you, sch started 4 days for me. What have i been stressed abt? what have i been worrying about? Do you know?

I've been rejected by a classmate to become a project group member, telling me i'm inefficient? how humiliated. Now i'm damn stressed abt this cos if i cant get e right ppl, my results will b affected. Do you noe tt? I have 4 projects ordi n i've yet to get enuf info abt them. psychology is another tough module im gonna suffer. & my 3 so damn costly textbooks.. & mum only gives me 5 bucks a day. How do i tell you all of this when you are already so down so stressed.. All i need now is your company your support... You're not the only tired and lonely one. I'm fuckin stressed too..

If im gonna be angry so easily, we'll nvr stop fallin out.. list few of them? Last thursday you said you dun wanna come.. it hurts... One more time you said.. "I really wanna come, But I dun wanna come too cos im tired".. That hurts fucking deep down.. Then you called me a son of an idiot. Do you know how an insult it is to me? Its more than ya insulting me... I kept cool. Then you asked me if ya changed... I said you did in a way, and you started explaining everythin. Explaining is not impt. You wanna noe whether ya changed, i jux told u my opinion... you dun haf to explain anything you get me?

I've told myself this... Not to get angry over tings easily. I've put in all i have to tell myself tt getting upset is only wastin time.. Do u really think im nt jealous when guys tok to u in msn? when i say i no longer mind you tokin to them online, and not askin u hu ya eatin n hu ya with in sch? Whenever im upset, i tell myself this.. You love me.. we're stil as intimate as before.. that appeased all that is in me..

Im tellin u all this nt cos i wan u to feel bad towards me.. I wan u to know tt i love and miss u this much...

I dun wanna argue anymore.. I love you....

Sorry to update at only this time....