Thursday, March 01, 2007
11:23 PM
So you've admitted... Finally you tell me your true feelings.. I am scary.. Very scary.. and ya scared being with me....
Ya.. My jealousy is powerly strong.. compared with your reaction last night to that testi from somebody i dun noe well.. i m scary to get so jealous when you decided to hide some things between your communication with your old flame tinkin i may be upset when i noe e truth? Its not as if you wudn't be if i dun tell you all when you asked when i had a communication between me and my old flame.. And you didn't bother to tease me a lil.. put me dere sitting, den go to your beloved computer.. Well.. He's online anyway.. Who am i compared to him...
At least he's not a damn horny bastard like me.. he do so well in his studies.. He doesnt say Oh i can nvr do it no matter how many times you cheer.. he looks so fantabulous cool that he was even surrounded by a table of girls on prom.. He's not filled with hatred.. he's lovely.. nvr harbored thoughts of revenge.. He doesn't criticise.. no sarcasm.. lest humiliation.. perfect.. doesn't get jealous and unreasonable like me.. Oh and he's not a vulgar barbarian like i am.. He is a gentleman..
I am rubbish.. 'KE PA'.. What can i give you anyway.. What can you wish from me ? All i can is kiss you like i nvr did b4.. Hug you like you're everything... I know that's all i can do.. and you are afraid of me.. My hatred for the society.. My worthless care that you think is useless.. Fine.. I admit.. I AM SUPER INFERIOR TO ANTI-SOCIAL...
If you aren't afraid of this scary monster and still misses me.. gimme a call.... I'll wait throughout the whole night.. I wan you to make me not get scary anymore...... I fuckin hate myself to make you hate me.. I dun wanna be so nice to myself by hurting other ppl's pride anymore..... I wanna be nice to myself.. By makin the girl i love to love me too.. I AM SCARY.. I FUCK MYSELF FOR THAT..
Push my childhood away