LOL the most beloved girl in my life says 'I am SCARY'...

HAHA listen to the music in my blog and maybe you'll understand what she's trying to say.. That piece of music conveys all that is in me.. Every single hatred I bottle for every single person who crossed my path.. All that will suffer under my surveillance..

LOL have you ever wondered why there are so many colourful outlines and expressions in so many other people, the reason of their colorful blogs, their smooth-going lifestyle, no hatred within them, no setbacks.. And why is my life so dull, my blog is always full of black and white, full of entries that tell all of my misery life, why i hate so much.. why my life is never smooth?

Live in my stand.. And the most you stay with your friends is no more than a year.. swoppin classes, moving places.. No frens... Alone.. Get humiliated by a pool of different people.. Get criticised, or in a word, bullied by everyone.. Grow up that way.. And you know why Hitler is so successful in taking millions of lives.. He lives totally in hatred..

I dun worship him.. Neither am i happy living like this.. I fuckin hate myself to be in this shape.. Why wouldn't i choose to live without hatred.. given the fact tt i m nth but a pampered baby.. I wanna protect myself.. But i dun wish to hurt too.. God damn this lil scary monster.. I found her and i need her so much..

So today i realise my strong jealousy due to my hatred and distrust to this world.. I wanna keep her.. I dun trust others.. I get jealous.. or rather.. scared that i'll lose her.. I only have her to trust other than my family..

FUCK MYSELF FOR MY LIFESTYLE... WON'T YOU GUIDE ME OUTTA THIS EVIL CULT?

CAREFUL.. MONSTER DEVOURS.. GRRAAWWLL!!