I dunno how to start.. reli dunno... I tot i was so lookin forward to wed.. I tot i cud spend tt special day wid someone whom i love, i appreciate...... I thought........

"Why not?" "I dun feel like it"...... "Why the sudden change of mind" "Just dun feel like it"... So after so much i've done, so much i've spent, and the efforts i've put in to try to make this day a reli fun one, you wash everything away with a simple 'NO', without even telling me why exactly you dun wan it... Am i appreciated, for the efforts, for getting everything, for plannin e programmes? You dun even say a sorry aft i've told u i got all e things.. Do you appreciate me? You say its 'xin ku'.. Are you? All you did, was say 'NO' to all tt i've done for e both of us smth we were so enthu abt.. I only expected a reason why.. I wun force u to eat in my house.. But i wan a fair treatment.. I dun fuckin' mind e food i've bought.. I wanna be treated fairly.. I need to know what's goin on.....................

Nobody ever appreciated me, not in the past, not now, maybe not in the future.. Was it wrong to know why you change your mind so suddenly ? You think i screamed at you.. you think you think you think.. How many times have you screamed at me when you're paranoid? Now tt i am, i cant raise my voice a lil ?

Who in the fuckin' world appreciates my soul... Who ever did ? Do i be like Tim before you start to appreciate me ?

Breakin down..... You said im pampered.. Are you not so ? Haven i pampered you enuf, or do you feel tt im not doin enuf ?

I tell you. i need your pamper.... I need you to express your appreciation, your love, not jux keep them silent... Can i wish for just a sudden hug ?