It certainly isn't easy.. To get anybody to understand me.. To know what i wish from them.. Nobody did...

Yes, maybe i really do have a high expectation of courtesy, or perhaps mere ego which still runs in me.. I mind alot about how people look at me, i expect everyone to gimme the least basic courtesy anyone in this world deserves.. That could be the reason why i choose people to be my friends... Impolite people are meant to live in the jungle.

It's hard to satisfy me in any ways.. I'm always complainin, always suspecting.. Perhaps i could no longer trust anybody as simply a harmless smile could mean to anybody.. I should make this lifetime a selfish and reckless one, to take the plunge down the ruthless heights to nowhere.. Because after i fell, i rest alone.

Please don't try to get the link to my bloggie people.. It is personal, it is undisclosed to all..

I seek appreciation, i seek recognition.. I need attention, i want commitment.....